I wish we didn’t connect ourselves to one human being. It makes things difficult when things become disconnected.
I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I can’t help but wanting to check in on you. I can’t help how bad I feel because things didn’t go as planned. I can’t help that I hurt you, I didn’t mean to, I didn’t want to.
Part of me hates myself. I wish I could have been better for you. I wish things could have worked. I wish there were never any problems.
The other part of me forces me to think about reality. Nothing is perfect. Not every relationship will work. And loving someone doesn’t necessarily mean they are supposed to be with you for the rest of your life.
I need to worry and think about what’s best for me. But I feel so selfish thinking that way. I hate it.
As cliche as it is, things that are meant to be, will be. Whether it takes days, or years.
Time can only tell.
Time can only help me from here on out.
If only I could speed things up for myself.
I love Corey Barkman <3